2010 

THANKZ VEREH MUACH . 

2011 

HELLO AND I LURVE LURVE YOU ,

HOPE YOU LURVE LURVE ME TOO . 

五.Yue.Tian

我的声音在笑 泪在飙 电话那头的你可知道

我在用手机打这篇文章，耳机里有五月天的声音，躺在床上，写着日记。 （：

I JUST WANT A NORMAL NYE. IDK WHAT TO SAY. AM LISTENING ALONE , I MEAN THE SONG, HAHA (: YOU SEE THE DISADVANTAGE OF USING MOBILE PHONES TO BLOG. AHHHH .. WELL, YOU DONT GET WHAT I MEAN , DO YOU ? OWH, I FOUND YA , YOU STALK ME , AS WHAT YOU SAID, I AM ALWAYS THIS SS,SO YEAH , DONT STALK ME ADY LAAA (:

wu yue tian :*)

嘿， 我給你自由， 我給你自由 :)

開心的時候，
難過的時候，
有五月天的時候，
又哭又笑的時候，
陪伴我每一天的時候，

好好聽哦 ;)

不知道不明了不想要為什麼，我的心，
明明是想靠近，
卻孤單到黎明，
這是我的溫柔。 :) 　:)

親愛的五月天，
你讓我好快樂，
讓我有夢想，
讓我在找不到人傾訴的時候，
在我的耳邊輕輕唱，
唱我的心聲，
然後把答案唱給我聽，
讓我知道怎麼做 :)

世界若是那麼小，
為何我的真心，
你聽不到  (:


我。的。心。在。笑。呢。我是快樂的 ：）

I LUB PAINT :)

I LUB LUB PAINT :) 

Make me sho happie :)

THANK YOU MAYDAY , 

NAO MY BRAIN ISH FULL OF YOUR SONGZ , 

STUCK 

AND I AM SHO HAPPIE , 

NO NO TIME THINK OF SILLY STUFFS :D 

I'M SHO HAPPY TILL I COULD DIE :) :) :) 

you think so  ? 

:):)

Oh Kiwi , Oh Oh my day .

Ah , kiwi .
such lifeless day .
What happened to me ?
shoo friggin lifeless and shooo frigginn weird , like sitting on a roller coaster , my heart goes UP UP UP and POOOF down down down .
Why do I feel like the 5% of emoness is dancing 'round me and fooling 'round like ha ha ha , neh ni neh ni bu bu ?  ;(
Was it because it's the end of the year , so needa do the so called clearance , clear all my emoness before 2011 comeeees ?


AWH PWESH ,
I thought the 5% emoness I've already used it till kao kao in thesh yearz .
AWH PWESH ,
don't cha try to tell me there's still 10% government tax and 5% service tax , so my emoness ain't 5%  only .
AWH PWESH ,
AWHH PWESHHHH , I BEGGG CHUU .

wwokkkaaay , I still speak mua alien perfecto wordz , sho I think I amz sheeteel woookaaaay ? (:

MAYDAY-STRUCK .
sho lag ,
beecuz , me is downloading over 50 songz at thesh moment .
at least Mayday makes me HIGH lor, pwesh (: (: (:
I can play Mayday's song , especially those HIGH HIGH DEI ones in my room ,
and jump jump jump and sing till co-ak in my room (:

aumm , you stop imagine ,
you could never imagined how gila am I ,
if I weren't clearing ze 5% + 10% + 5% emoness ,
I thinkz I am feelin superb awezome right nao .
IF . OH YEAH IFZ .

p/s : Go play swing swing la , you will feel much more better (: I just tried
p/p/s : Owh , you know whuat is swing swing anot ? the one in ze playground yo .
p/p/s/s : EAT KIWI , and from :(  , you will :) ,and feel so KEEWHEEEE :D

right , so ss ,
what to do ,
to get rid of sheetwopeed emotional stuffs like :( :( :(  , D:   D:   D: , :'(  :'(   :'( ,
sho SS lar

(: (: (: (: (:

good bais .
I LUB YA .
and awh ,
am listening Mayday's er wo zhi dao ,
and owh , Ting Bu Dao ,
sho eshen .
and owh owh , WANG CI ,
sho friggin eshen-ish .

and awh ,
MAYDAY ish sho awezome ,
rock on .

peaaaceeee :)

Dear blogger ,

Oh Hello ,
and I ended up didnt watch the Korean lengzai and cute guys ,
yet listening sho friggin down songs ,
seeking for help from a doctor ,
and lying on my bed at 2 17 am
okay ,
sucha failure .

good bye .

Love ,
eshen .

Dear blogger ,

awh , I love the time with them ..
and now I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere ,
thinking of silly stuffs,
too bored ?
IDK .
THINK TOO MUCH THINK TOO MUCH .
like my heart is on a roller coaster  ,
goes up and down ,
poooof .

sho weird .
I can tell no one ,
zipppp :X .

wookay , I'm so gonna burst , weird feelings ,
very very weird , indeed .

POOF , I WANT TO WATCH KOREAN KAWAII GUY AND LENGZAI ,
so I wont have weird feelings ,
Jang Guen Suk , and Lee Hong Gi :)


yeshhhh esheeennn , yeshhhh you can !!!
AJA AJA FIGHTHING !


Love ,
Eshen

Evidences of getting over eshen's so called depression .

WARNING : 

THIS POST IS  FLOODED WITH PHOTOS . 

Can Ss with brother , 

Can watch You're Beautiful ( Korean Drama ) , 

Can do different expressions , 

still got depression , no ? 

Can tidy up my desk . 

NAO YOU SEE , 

YOU MAY THINK MY DESK IS STILL VERY MESSY ,
BUT I TELL YA , 

YOU GOTTA BELIEVE , 

THIS IS THE CLEANEST OF ALL MY RECORDS , 

THIS IS THE BEST , 

MOST TIDY , 

ohhhhkaaaaaaay ? 

I know , 

but I tried my best .  )' : 

You didnt see how messy it was , 

I didnt get to take a picture before I tidy up 

• Books, which normally put beside my bed, are nao on my desk ;)
• Me and my mom , when I was young , when my mom's hair was straight . hahha :D
• A gift from Li bought in Santorini 
• My very own Hontoni kawaii desu Sushi rock (:
• A bottle of stars 
• and lots more (:

• Sticky notes I made before PMR (:
• Post card from yushu when she was still in Taiwan 
• Family photo :))
• Besties photo :))

• Stationary :)
• Photo (: 
• Sticky :)
• Lolli :)
• Sticky notes (: 

• Note book given by shu :)
• Sticky (: 
• Radioooo, only turns on in examination period ;)

• Awwwhhh yushu sooon (:　(:

• Law of attraction , yeah , I love sejarah . 
• When I was young (:
• Super awesome tagline to make me feel awesome :)

• Piggie :) my bday present from Li in 2009 :D

• ahhh , when four of us were still in Form Two . :)

• My booooks :D :D :D and me ad my mom ;)

• After PMR , there are still awesome taglines to make me :D !
• LEE HOM WANG (:

• He speaks to me . Since first term exam 2010 , till nao . 

•  Nom Nom drawn by YiZen :)
• and nao , I love sejarah , especially ISHLAM . YA.   :')

• I love my sticky notes :) tho it makes my desk looks untidy :D

• No more PMR wet wet water , it was a past , nao I changed it to 3A5's class photo :D
• and also , no more 8As !!!!  Changed to I Love Study . Sniff sniff . 

• and yay , Eshen Is Awesome :)

This is my cleanest desk EVER . 

dont doubt , 

I swear, 

I tried my best . 

I need my sticky notes to survive . 

no matter how messy they are.  . 

SATISFACTION . :D 

and yay , 

Merry Chirstmas :) 

we went The Pork Place , 

okaaaaay lor , 

we ate pork , 

pork ate our money ,

They only have Christmas Eve set dinner , 

plaaah . 

phine . 

Reached home , 

I was vereh vereh syok sendiri , 

how ? 

I took five candles and lighted up , 

and put all the tarts, bread , and fruits on the table , 

and wore Christmas hat ,

and jumped here and there,

and text Dear Santa , I dont want much and blah blah love you thingy to my friends and family , awh  . 

and watched movie .

SHO AWEZOME. 

mom and dad laughed at me when I jumped from the living room till dining room till kitchen , 

and jumped back to the living room from kitchen , 

they said I gila gila , 

last few days so depressed, and nao hee hee and haaa haaa . 

I know right ... 

heee heee and haaa haaa . 

Oh , santa , 

TQ for giving me 

hee hee and haa haaaa , 

THANK YOU MUCH. 

MERRY CHRISTMAS , HO HO HO . 

Do believe keep yourself busy can stop depression

P/S :  BUT NOT CURE DEPRESSION. AM NOW STUCK IN MY COMFY COM COM BEDROOM. WITH A SUPER COMFY COM COM BLANKIE. AND MY SIS IS CLEANING UP THIS SUPER COMFY COM COM ROOM. AND I AM SO LAZY , LYING ON THE BED USING PHONE TO BLOG. THIS ISH THE FIRST TIME. DO TELL ME HOW TO (1) CHANGE ALL THESE CAPITAL LETTERS TO NORMAL ONES. (2) ENTER ENTER ENTER TO NEXT PARA, I DONT KNOW HOW TO GO DOWNNN . THANK YOU BERRY MUCH. YOU SEE, I AM PROUD TO SAY I ACTUALLY SORT OF GET OVER DEPRESSION YESTERDAY. MY SO CALLED DEPRESSION,YEAH. AND TODAY I HAVE NOTHING TO DO SO FAR, SO I COULD FEEL THE SILENCE, OWH, FREAKY, DEPRESSION COMES TO ME. HELP, OH HELP. RIGHT, SHE'S CALLING ME TO CLEAN STUFFS, MAYBE I CAN GETOVER IT BY CLEANING UP , RIGHT.... SO, GOODBYE. WHAT A CHRISTMAS EVE. BAIS.

FEW DAYS OF DEPRESSION IS ENOUGH . 

RIDICULOUS . 

I'll get over it , I can  . 

:)     :D     :)      :D      :)  :D

Define Depression

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behaviour, feelings and physical well-being. Depressed people may feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, or restless. 


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So you think I've got depression ? I don't know . Maybe not , maybe just slide into chaos , thrown in confusion. It's 3.39 pm right now , I don't know what am I doing . So lost , really lost. Can't stop thinking at horrible consequences , can't stop listening songs that once made me broke down , and I can't stop the sky from bursting into tears , it's going to rain . You shouldn't have harmed yourself, don't you understand how much people around you care about you. I can do nothing , nothing , what do you want from me ? You might not expect anything from me , but I am really terrified, I gave up. It's too much for me , I can't make it, I can't handle this. What should I say ? I've tried so many ways to make myself calm , I wrote everything in my diary, I listened songs to forget about everything , I went out and kept myself busy, I slept and tried to escape from reality, I .. tried . But diary didn't give me any advices, songs made me even depressed, when I came back home and I couldn't stop thinking , and I couldn't sleep , I've tried... Mom and dad aren't at home, I need them, I want to talk to them , needn't to wink back tears. Helpless. So what's the point for two best friends avoiding each other , stay away as far as possible ? Does that mean , they are no longer best friends ? All good things must come to an end , mustn't it ? Is this the only way I could make myself feel at least a lil bit better ? 








Dear Diary, 


I wonder how many times I have to shed tears in a day .  (:
I am afraid . Save me . 


Love me . 




Song of the day :  遺憾

SO . HELPLESS . TILL . I . CAN . DIE .



SOMEONE .  SAVE . ME . PLEASE .

突然：好想你

最怕回忆突然翻滚

绞痛着不平息.

當我在寫這篇的時候，
這首歌一直在耳邊，
當你在讀這篇的時候，
這首歌在你的耳邊嗎？

2008年 ：

• 當我們第一次坐在一起，參加一日遊的時候（：

• 當別人都在笑我們拿盤子來玩的時候，

2009年：

• 當我們第一次在新年期間出去的時候（：

• 當我們一起慶祝朋友的生日，一起度過情人節的時候，

• 當我們決定要一起背文言文，名句精華的時候，

• 當我們第一次一起過夜的時候，

• 當我們都愛拍照的時候，

• 當我們第一次參與領袖營的時候，

• 當我們一起到冰淇淋店的時候，

• 當我們把手頭上的工作做完之後，

• 當我們一起踏入書局的時候，

• 當我們一起看演唱會的時候，

• 當我們看完國會辯，要回學校的時候，

• 當我們一起看國會辯的時候，

• 當學校樂隊開演奏會的時候，

• 當我們第一次一起出席晚宴的時候，

• 當我們同在一起的時候，

• 當我們同喝一瓶水的時候，

• 當我們第二次出去一日遊的時候，

• 當我們在巴士上的時候，

• 當我擁抱你的時候，

• 當我們以為朋友要離開的時候，

2010 年：

• 當我們和你慶祝生日的時候：）

• 當我們製造的驚喜失敗的時候，

• 當我們第二次去領袖營的時候，

• 當我們放學後就在一起的時候，

• 當我們一起拍照的時候，

• 當我們都唱的很盡興的時候，

• 當我們參加比賽的時候，

• 當我們一起去爬山的時候，

• 當我們一起吃糖果的時候，

• 當我們贏了比賽的時候，

• 當我們第一次一起去動物園的時候，

• 當我們一起策劃一日遊的時候，

• 當我幫你們拍照的時候，

• 當我們參加第二次的晚宴，長比較大的時候，

• 當所有的人已經落跑，剩下我們的時候，

• 當我們一起翹課的時候，

• 當我們很做作的眺望遠方的時候，

• 當我們約定要一起上去玩的時候，

• 當我們一起把五月天和王力宏的名字畫上我們的杯子的時候，，

沒有了，

就停在這邊。

我想說，

我想念你們，

一個人的夜晚聽著耳機裡的“突然好想你”，

不好受。 

我真的想念你們，

怎麼會那麼沒有用，

還有三天。