I should have said all the things that I kept inside of me

All we'd ever need.

Hi , dead blog..

been real busy recently. 

Ah gong passed away. 

and what shall I say ? 

I miss him so much , 

words can't describe my feelings toward him. 

wo ai ni . 

so many things are happening, 

too fast , 

too quick , 

they think I am strong enough, 

they think I am moving on,

but the truth is that I am not,

for many things, 

in many things. 

I can hardly catch up, 

your pace.

I don't feel like doing my homework, i am slacking, yes i know. 

So restless, 

deep inside my heart. 

I thought I think too much,

always and still do, 

silly me. 

change brain with me, won't you ? 

Too sensitive, 

sigh,

removes some nerves in me then, 

might be less sensitive so I wouldn't show how much I care and how do people and I feel. 

pathetic much. 

Just go smiling and be cheerful like how you used to be, like seriously, 

you need to stand up and fight, eshen. 

you're not going to cry like a baby and wait for a sympathetic smile.  

why do I always say things that are actually not the truth,

why do I have to be so initiative and over enthusiastic sometimes and forget bout how people feel,

why do I regret from doing so after all and swear I will never did that once more,

why do I keep quiet and remain silent when I actually have so much to tell,

why do I not tell you the truth before hanging up and make myself a half-dead human.

And this wasn't me, 

this Is me . 

Very annoying ;(

I'll be better, like how I used to beeeeee . 

Loves. 

xx 

(: